6:00AM - if I am not already awake with Matthew, I am jostled awake by an annoying alarm tone on my cell phone.

6:00AM - 7:30AM: Pump, play with Matthew, take a shower, get ready for work, prepare M’s bottles, take the dog out, change a diaper, nurse Matthew if he’s interested, eat breakfast (oatmeal), get dressed.

7:45AM - actually leave for work. My goal is to walk out of the door between 7:30AM and 7:45AM.

7:45AM - 8:00AM - catch train #1.

8:00AM - 8:15AM - Ride first train. Do crossword puzzle. I love crossword puzzles.

8:15AM - 8:30AM - Transfer trains. Stand uncomfortably (this is the busiest train of my morning’s reverse commute out of the city to a suburb). Some days I stand there for over 20 minutes waiting for a connecting train. CTA how I hate thee.

8:30AM - 9:30AM: Work - check voicemail, email, chat with folks as needed.

9:30AM - 10:00AM: Pump.

10:00AM - 12:00PM: Work.

12:00PM - 1:00PM: Lunch - every Tuesday with Josh and Matthew. Otherwise, working lunches or social lunches.

1:00PM - 1:30PM: Check voicemail, email, read paper.

1:30PM - 2:00PM: Pump.

2:00PM - 5:00PM: Work.

5:00PM - 6:00PM: Commute back home (includes walking time to and from the train stations)

6:00PM - 7:00PM: Bath time with Matthew, bedtime routine for M too.

7:00PM - 8:00PM: Dinner and a DVD (Right now we’re watching Wrestlemanias on DVD via Netflix)

8:00PM - 10:00PM: Do any and all of the following: wash bottles out for the next day, do laundry, clean desk (GOD I CANNOT GET ON TOP OF THIS), read boards, scratch dog, check blood sugar, zone out.

10:00PM - 11:00PM: Adult bedtime routine. Last bathroom breaks, contact removals, cleaning up the bedroom quietly and darkly (so it happens sort of haphazardly) so as not to wake up Matthew, cuddling, talking, and finally, sleeping.

anytime between 1:00AM - 4:00AM: Matthew wakes up for a feeding.

anytime between 1:00AM - 4:00AM: I wake up for pumping.

And it all begins again at 6.

One day I will sleep more than three or four hours in a row and I will not know what to do with myself.