Now five. I want to go to bed in five minutes, so I can be relatively awake for my morning commute. A couple of weeks ago I decided to go into work 2 days early and go running, have a shower, and then go to my office. Today, it did not happen because I had to get my transit pass and the place doesn’t open until 7:30AM. Then, of course, BART was experiencing delays… which meant I didn’t get into work until quite late. No run for me. Never mind that, I’ll just go in tomorrow and Friday and run at home on Sunday.

I’m running again, and while I’m running I kind of hate it, but it’s the feeling I get afterward - I get all smug with myself that I just ran. It’s quite lovely. It’s not runner’s high or adrenaline or anything like that, it is just me being a snob. Heh. Anyway, I am planning on running in a 5K in February so I have to get back into fighting form and wow, it is so hard to do this time around. My motivation is lacking and I am just tired. I have to figure out what it will take to get my mind in line with itself - it’s like half of my brain wants to do one thing and the other half just doesn’t. I had so much motivation two years ago, when I was working out nightly. I should just do it. Just do it. Just get up and do it.

Tomorrow, of course.